No Angel
By Claire Lanham
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Disclaimers : Unfortunately I don't own any of these characters.
*sigh* I'm just borrowing them for my own amusement. I promise to put
them back when I'm done!
Feedback : Questions, comments, criticisms? Just send `em to
claire_slayer@hotmail.com
Notes : This is my first attempt at fic, and I think it's gonna be a
long one, so bear that in mind. I just can't write quickies. Chapter One
Faith stood just outside the gate, eyes closed and face upraised,
relishing the feel of the sun on her face. She was free. How long she
stood like that she wasn't sure, but eventually a voice broke into
her reverie.
"If you stay like that long enough you're gonna start growing roots."
Kate said, a smirk in her voice. Faith didn't answer, just smiled and
opened her eyes. The ex-cop turned private investigator stood a few
feet away, watching Faith enjoy her freedom.
"Hi." Kate nodded to the young woman's bag.
"That all you got?" Faith shrugged, picking it up and hefting it on
her shoulder.
"Ready to go?" Faith glanced back at the prison that had been her
home for the past two years, then looked back at the detective.
"Lets motor."
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Kate stayed silent on the drive to Angel's office, wisely realising
that Faith wasn't up to conversation right now. Glancing over she saw
that the young slayer was entirely preoccupied with watching the
scenery flash past. An intense look was on Faith's face.
"What are you thinking?" asked Kate, the first words she'd spoken
since getting in the car. Faith shrugged.
"Not really thinking anything." she replied, still looking out the
passenger window. Kate nodded.
This had to be slightly overwhelming for her. Kate herself was still
getting used to the fact that she wouldn't have to drive two hours
just to speak to her face to face. And speaking without glass in the
way would be different. They'd only spoken once without the glass in
the way, and that was when she was taking her confession.
Kate chuckled to herself as she remembered that night. Who'd have
thought that two years later she and Faith would be friends. Or that
she'd be working for Angel instead of threatening to kill him. It had
been six months and she was still getting her head around that. Faith
turned her head.
"What are you laughing at?"
"Me." she answered honestly. Faith furrowed her brow, then obviously
decided to let the odd answer slide. She was used to getting weird
responses from the detective, and had long ago given up trying to
figure them out.
"So how close are the offices?" she asked, trying to keep the
apprehension out of her voice. She wasn't sure what to expect when
she got to Angel's, but was trying not to worry about it.
"We're here." Kate said, pulling up outside the hotel. Faith stared.
She had known that the offices used to be a hotel, but it was still
strange seeing it.
"Wow." she breathed. Trust Angel to choose this place. They got out
of the car and went up to the door, where Faith paused to get a
steadying breath before going in.
Only Cordelia was there, and she didn't even glance up from the
paperwork in front of her, merely calling out hi. Faith walked up to
the counter, eyes taking in a lot of odd details like the scorch
marks on the stairs, and the bullet holes in a supporting column.
Place had obviously been the site of a few hairy battles. She decided
to quiz someone about it later.
"Hey Cordelia. Where is everyone?" Kate asked. She had been expecting
Angel and Wesley to be there to greet Faith. Gunn would be probably
be around later on in the day. She was slightly disappointed that
no-one was here. Cordelia looked up from the paperwork in surprise.
"Oh. I thought you were Wesley. He went to get lunch. Angel got a
call from Gunn. He'll be back in a couple hours." The seers brain
finally registered that Faith was there. "Hi Faith." Faith nodded in
response. Cordelia put the paperwork away and came out into the
foyer, enveloping the slayer in a warm embrace.
Surprised by this gesture Faith stiffened, then awkwardly returned
the gesture before pulling away. She wasn't used to people invading
her space like that. Hadn't been before prison, certainly not now.
Cordelia seemed oblivious to Faith's discomfort, practically pushing
her down onto one of the couches.
"Want some coffee?" Faith nodded, as did Kate, who sat opposite. She
had noticed Faith's discomfort, and was glad she hadn't tried the
same thing outside the prison. Of course, she had some idea of what
Faith needed. She'd picked up a few parolees in her day. Some were
eager for human contact, but most she'd seen weren't used to it. You
didn't spend two years in a maximum security prison without learning
to protect your personal space.
"How you doing?" she asked quietly as Cordelia got the coffee. Faith
just smiled and shrugged.
"Wonder what Wesley's getting for lunch." She was eager to eat
something other than bland prison food.
"What are you hoping for?"
"Tuna mayo sandwich." replied Faith immediately. That was one thing
she didn't get in prison. She didn't even like it that much, but not
having had one for two years she was looking forward to reminding
herself what one tasted like. Kate quirked an eyebrow, then grinned.
Before she could comment Cordelia came back with the coffee, and
Wesley arrived with lunch, which he nearly dropped when he saw Faith.
"Faith!" Faith stood, regarding him with a blank face. He still
avoided her wherever possible, and she still felt almost sick with
guilt whenever she saw him.
"Wesley." Her calm greeting seemed to settle the englishman down, as
he smiled at her.
"It's good to see you in something other than prison garb." He placed
the lunch on the table and started unpacking it as he carried on. "I
was hoping to get back before you arrived. I thought you might like
something to eat."
"Yeah. Thanks." She took a look at the spread. "I can't wait to eat
something different." She sipped her coffee, then chose a turkey
sandwich, devouring it in seconds.
Wesley frowned, then shrugged, tucking into his own sandwich, as did
Cordelia. Kate just sipped her coffee, and listened to the two
discuss a case. She studied the slayer, noting how quiet she was.
Something was bothering her, but she wasn't sure what, or how to ask.
After lunch was finished Faith announced that she was going for a
walk. Kate volunteered to go with her, thinking that it would be the
perfect opportunity to find out what was wrong.
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"You were pretty quiet back there." Faith shrugged. She was more of a
listener than a talker. Not many people she enjoyed talking to at
prison. And she wasn't sure how to act around Wesley and Cordelia. It
was somehow easier when they were separated by glass.
"Don't normally talk to much."
"Really?" Kate seemed surprised. "I wouldn't have guessed that. You
always talk so much when I visit." Faith shrugged again.
"I like talking to you. I don't have to censor myself."
"Oh." Faith glanced over at Kate, who was staring down at the
sidewalk, a thoughtful look on her face. "So what's really bothering
you?" She asked, fixing Faith with a look that plainly said she
wasn't going to stop until she'd gotten the truth. Faith sighed
inwardly. It was really difficult to hide things from a detective.
Especially one as good at reading people as Kate.
"I'm supposed to stay with Angel." She said, once again grimacing at
the thought of living with him for more than a few days. She looked
away from Kate's eyes, instead stopping and sitting on a bench. Kate
sat next to her, and Faith could feel the detectives eyes on her. "I
don't think I can do it."
"Do what? Live with Angel?" Faith nodded.
"It'll be hard anyway, but I don't think spending my time with a two
hundred and fifty year old vampire is gonna make it any easier."
Faith explained. Ever since she'd found out she was supposed to be
living with him when she got out, she'd been dreading it. Kate just
nodded. Faith looked away, embarrassed to admit that she couldn't
handle it. After a few minutes of watching the traffic Kate spoke.
"You can live with me then." Faith whipped her head round, eyes wide
in shock. Kate just looked at Faith, face serious.
"What?" Faith couldn't quite believe it.
"If you don't want to live with Angel you can live with me. I have a
spare room, plenty of space. I don't think Angel will object." Faith
just stared at Kate. Finally she spoke.
"Why?" Why would anyone want to live with Faith? Especially someone
who knew what she'd done and what she was capable of? Kate seemed
oblivious to Faith's shock.
"I'd like the company." She said simply, waiting for an answer. Faith
couldn't detect any trace of sarcasm in her voice, and had to
conclude that she was being serious. She did want Faith to live with
her.
"You sure Angel wont mind?" Faith had already decided she didn't care
if he did. She was going to move in with Kate until she could get a
place of her own.
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As it turned out, Angel didn't really have much to say about it.
After it became obvious that both women wanted it, and that they had
no doubts, he simply said that his door was always open, and that was
the end of it. Much to the relief of both Kate and Faith, although
they hid it quite well from Angel, and from each other.
After saying their goodbyes to the rest of the gang, who were busying
trying to work out the location of a vampire nest downtown, they
left. Kate considered what food she had in her apartment, and
realised that if she was going to have to go shopping. Hoping that
the market was still open she did a u-turn, and started planning what
she needed to buy.
"Uh, Kate?" Faith sounded confused. "You forget where you live or
something?" Kate smiled and glanced at her passenger.
"I just remembered I have no food in the apartment. Thought it might
be a good idea to stop at the market on the way." Faith nodded. "You
have any preferences on what we should get?" Kate asked, realising
she had no idea what Faith's tastes were. The brunette shrugged.
"I'll eat anything. Except cereal." She smiled to herself in
anticipation. "I'm just looking forward to cooking something decent."
She realised that Kate was giving her an odd look. "If you don't mind
that is." she put in hurriedly, hoping she wasn't already assuming to
much. To her relief the detective shook her head, and she was
grinning now.
"I was just trying to picture you cooking." she teased.
"You don't think I can cook?" Faith said indignantly. "Well. I guess
I'll just have to prove you wrong then." she said in a mock serious
voice, although she was serious, and was hoping that she wasn't too
out of practise. Funny thing about prison, they hadn't been that
eager to let her work in the kitchen. She shook her head, and started
planning what she would need.
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"So. Did I prove you wrong?" Faith watched as Kate tasted the
chicken. From the surprised look on her face, she guessed that she
had. Faith smiled, glad that the effort she had put into preparing
the meal was worth it. She'd practically locked herself into the
kitchen, ordering Kate to stay away. As she'd cooked some of the
tension she'd been feeling since being let out faded away. Course,
that could have had something to do with the wine she was drinking.
"This is excellent." Faith's smile got even wider, and she started
eating her own meal, beaming proudly. Most of the meal passed in
silence, but it was a comfortable silence. Faith took the
opportunity to look around the apartment. It was just as she'd
imagined it would be. Neat, uncluttered, organised. The detective had
poor taste in music though. Right now they were listening to some
woman power album.
While Faith looked around the apartment, Kate studied Faith. She
couldn't help but admire how Faith's eyes sparkled in the
candlelight. Kate had forgotten that she'd blown a fuse last week
that left her without lights. She'd yet to get it fixed. When they
were finally finished, and cleared the table Faith spoke.
"You have a great place."
"Thanks." Faith looked around suddenly, just realising something.
"Where's my bag?"
"I put it in your room." Kate pointed to the room at the end of the
corridor. "That's you, right next to me, right across from the
bathroom." Faith nodded, and yawned widely, then smiled sheepishly at
Kate.
"Kinda beat. It's been a long day." Kate smiled. It certainly had
been.
"It has been, hasn't it? Do you have something to sleep in, or do you
want to borrow something?" Kate had noticed that the slayer didn't
have much stuff of her own. She'd have to take her shopping tomorrow
for some new clothes. Faith shrugged, all nonchalant.
"It's okay, I don't need anything."
"Are you sure?" Kate asked, concerned. Faith just nodded, grinning.
For a second Kate didn't understand why she was grinning, until she
remembered that Faith had told her once her reasons that prison
sucked. One being that she preferred to sleep in the nude. She
blushed, thinking about a naked Faith, then blushed even harder when
she saw that Faith noticed. In response she gave the slayer a
half-hearted shove, propelling her down the corridor.
"You better get some rest. You have a long day tomorrow." Faith
smiled, then stopped, hand on the handle to her room. She looked at
Kate, then at the floor, then at Kate again. Kate noticed this, and
paused outside her room, waiting patiently. Faith looked down at the
floor.
"Thank you." She said it so quietly Kate wasn't sure she had said
anything at all. Before she could reply, Faith went into her room,
shutting the door softly behind her. Kate stared at the door for a
long moment, before going to bed herself.
Chapter Two
The next morning Faith went with Kate to see Angel. He insisted on
having a few words with her, in private. Faith sat in his office,
calmly meeting his gaze. She had an idea what this talk was going to
be about.
"How are you?" He asked, genuine concern in his eyes. Faith shrugged.
"Five by five." He grinned slightly.
"How was your first night out?" Faith shrugged again. It had been
pretty damn good. A good meal that she'd cooked herself, enough wine
to make her pleasantly drowsy, and a real bed. It had almost been too
much for her. She'd barely had the energy to strip off and climb
under the covers before falling into a dreamless sleep.
"Okay." Not that she was gonna share that with him. He nodded at her
answer.
"What are your plans for today?"
"Kate said something about taking me shopping." Faith shrugged once
more, it was quickly becoming her favourite form of expression. When
she didn't volunteer any more information Angel stood up. He had on
what Faith had termed his `pensive face'. He wanted to ask something,
and it didn't take a genius to figure out what.
"I don't know what I'm going to do Angel." He looked at her,
surprised.
"How did-" Faith held up her hand.
"It was kinda obvious what you were going to ask. It's all I've been
able to think about." Faith stopped, and lowered her gaze to the
floor. Lots of hours thinking about life on the outside, but she
still had no idea what she was going to do. She'd come to the
conclusion that she was just going to `go with the flow' so to speak.
"I'm not gonna decide right now. I can't." There was almost a hint of
pleading in her voice, and she knew that Angel picked up on it. He
paused, looking down at her thoughtfully. His face gave nothing
away.
"You know that I'm always here for you, if you want to talk." Faith
nodded, already knowing that she would ignore his offer. She wasn't
much for heart to hearts. Especially not with someone whose heart
didn't beat.
"I know." It was nice to know that he was there anyway. After a few
minutes of sitting in silence Faith decided that she'd had enough
brooding for one day. "I better go. I think Kate wants to hit the
shops before they get busy."
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"So what did you and Angel talk about?" Kate was waiting for Faith to
emerge from the changing room, and was trying to get the slayer to
talk. She'd barely said two words all morning.
"He wanted to know what I'm going to do now I'm out." Faith answered
loudly. Kate nodded, she'd figured as much.
"So what are you going to do?" she asked as the door opened, and
Faith stepped out.
"I don't know." Kate nodded, appraising the slayer. She was wearing
tight black combats and a blood red shirt that emphasised all the
right curves. Faith waited for Kate's approval.
Kate was wondering if she ever wore anything else. All the outfits
she'd chosen where the same. Tight black pants, basic figure hugging
tops. Kate nodded that she liked this combo. And just like all the
others it looked good on her. Kate suspected that a burlap sack would
look good on the slayer.
Faith smiled, and went back into the changing room. "So what are your
plans for the rest of the day?" Kate shrugged, realised that the
slayer couldn't see her.
"Angel wants me to check out a lead for a case. Shouldn't take to
long." Faith emerged from the changing room carrying her choices.
Kate eyed the collection, wondering how much it was going to cost
her. "You finished, or do you want to get some more stuff?" She
asked, hoping that she was finished. Angel didn't pay her enough to
buy a large brand new wardrobe for the slayer. Thankfully Faith
nodded.
"I'm done." They made their way to the counter, where Faith dumped it
all in front of a harassed looking teenage boy. "So what's the lead?"
"I have to check out a warehouse on Devaro. There's been some reports
of `gang activity' there. We think that's where they might be holed
up." The boy rang up the bill, which wasn't as high as Kate had first
thought, while Faith took the bags.
"Want some back-up?" Kate glanced at Faith.
"You sure?" She didn't want to push her into some action on her first
day out. Faith nodded.
"I'm sure." They left the store, Kate eyeing Faith speculatively.
"'Sides, if the lead turns out right, I don't want you going in
alone." Faith didn't meet Kate's eyes as she mumbled the second part.
"Well, I wont be `going in'. I'm just checking it out." Faith
shrugged, still not meeting Kate's gaze.
"Still. Anything could happen." Kate smiled, realising that Faith was
worried about her.
"Well, as long as you're sure, it can't hurt to have someone watching
my back. Actually, it'll be quite nice to have some back up for a
change." Faith beamed, and Kate had to stop herself from laughing at
the eager look on her face. "C'mon, lets get some lunch."
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Faith studied the warehouse with an experienced eye. It was
definitely home for some vamps. It looked as derelict as the ones it
was squeezed between. Broken windows and old graffiti, rubbish strewn
about nonchalantly. But Faith could see tiny differences.
Like how one of the doors looked in perfect working order, and how
the small area around it was free of rubbish that was piled
everywhere else. And how there were broken windows on almost every
floor, except for the ground floor. There, all the windows were
boarded up and barred. And none of the others gave her the creeps
like this one was.
She could feel it, like an itch she couldn't scratch. Death filled
that building, and Faith was desperate to go in there and wipe it
out. She felt like her blood was screaming at her to commit some
serious violence. Swallowing thickly she turned around and walked
away from the edge of the roof, back to where Kate was standing.
"There's definitely some vamps holed up in there." She managed to
force out, struggling to suppress the urge to kill something. Kate
looked at her, concern showing clearly.
"Are you okay?" She asked stepping closer. Faith shut her eyes, and
finally won her inner battle. She nodded slowly.
"Yeah. Just didn't realise how long it's been since I had a good
slay." After a few deep breaths, she managed to open her eyes, to
look directly into two pools of blue. Kate was standing a lot closer
than she'd realised, and was watching Faith intently, concern showing
in her eyes. She was so close that she could smell the perfume Kate
was wearing, something light and floral. And now she felt a new surge
of emotions that she couldn't even begin to identify.
"Do you need more info, or can we motor?" she asked in a weak voice.
Kate stared at her for a few more seconds, trying to read how Faith
really was. Whatever she saw, she backed off a little, giving Faith
the space she wanted.
"I think we've got enough for now. If Angel wants any more, he can
come out here himself." She said forcefully. Faith let out a breath
she didn't know she had been holding.
It wasn't until they were back in the car and driving away that Faith
realised just how much the situation had gotten to her, and she
turned to look out of the window, face blank and eyes dark. Slaying
hadn't been an issue in jail, no vampires or demons to get her blood
up, but now she was free the urge to go out there and whoop some
undead ass was back in full force. And for the first time she wasn't
sure if she could do it.
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After dropping Faith back at the apartment she headed on to Angel's,
to tell him about the warehouse. She hadn't made up her mind about
telling him Faith's reaction at the warehouse. She was worried about
the young slayer. The drive back had been completed in total silence,
with Faith only responding with a grunt when Kate had dropped her off
and told her she would be back soon. It was as if she wasn't really
there at all. When Kate had gotten a good look at her, the young
woman's eyes gave nothing away as to what was really going through
that beautiful head of hers.
Wait a second. Beautiful? Kate pondered that, parking the car on the
street. Yes, Faith was an attractive young woman, and Kate had found
herself thinking about her constantly these past few days, but that
was just because she was living with her, right? Right? After a few
more minutes of pondering Kate shook her head, and decided to think
about it later.
"Hey Cordelia, Angel in?" The actress/seer looked up, a distracted
look on her face, and waved a hand in the general direction of the
garden. Kate took that as a yes, and headed to the garden. Angel
greeted her with a tiny smile, a mere lifting of his usual frown. She
smiled back, very briefly and made her way over to sit on the bench
beside him.
"I checked out the warehouse." She never bothered with small talk,
preferring to get right down to work.
"And?" He looked at her expectantly.
"It's definitely a nest." He nodded like that was there answer he
expected.
"How many?" Kate looked away. Usually she got close enough to get a
rough estimate on the odds, but she'd been so worried about Faith
that she'd left without her usual look around.
"I don't know, I didn't get close enough to find out." When she
looked up she saw Angel staring at her, waiting for her to explain.
"Faith could sense the vampires. Since she was tired I decided to
take her back to the apartment so she could rest." She lied, not
looking Angel in the face.
"How is she?"
"Alright. It's gonna take her a few days to adjust though." Angel
just nodded, again looking like that was the answer he expected. Kate
really hated that look sometimes. Biting her lip, she shook her head,
and turned the conversation back to work.
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When Kate eventually got back to the apartment she was surprised to
find Faith in the kitchen, cooking dinner. It must have showed
because Faith shrugged.
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